I realize it's petty, but sometimes I get sad when I see other people's success.  I suppose it's pretty normal, but since I don't like feelings, I find it disturbing.  It also motivates me to keep painting.  I have not been doing much, and have a million excuses, but to chase away the blues from someone else's success, I need to make some success of my own.  I'm also going to try and get someone to help me post my new paintings because they are pretty fabulous!