I am starting to recover from that last post.  I swear to god this has been the worst year of my life.  I am still grieving the loss of my Cooper.  I guess if I hadn't loved him so much the loss would not be so devastating.  I guess that's how it is; when I have loved greatly, the loss has been severe.  

I have been working on a few paintings on and off.  They totaled my car from the first accident and I finally got a brand new one.  Always a wait on electric cars but I'm okay with that.  Well, I managed to run my brand new car into a parked car and didn't hit something I could just bounce up the curb.  No, I had to hit a 2006 Mercedes. My car had exactly 156 miles on it and turns out it was un-drivable.  I hit the parked car right on my front passenger wheel and bent it a wee too much.  

If you ever get in an accident driving a Tesla, don't hope to get your car back in months.  Portland certified shops could get my car in March and Eugene was the closest with a January drop off.  I am diligent if nothing else and I finally found a shop in Tacoma that could take it November 15th.  My trip up there was like a slap stick comedy, from them canceling my tow, to getting lost, to the car delayed.  Even when it got there, they couldn't get it off the fucking tow truck.  I made it home safely but not without some mishaps in the Tesla I had rented for the day.  Aaaaarrrrrgggghhhh!!!

The year of 2021 has been about the most difficult of my life.  I have always seen myself as lucky in so many ways; well that ended this year.  Even to the smallest thing it's been a cockup.  Now I have a win-win situation (I hope).  I'm either going on a fabulous vacation with a couple of my daughters in May or I'm getting a new puppy on January 1st!  

Stay posted. 

I realize it's petty, but sometimes I get sad when I see other people's success.  I suppose it's pretty normal, but since I don't like feelings, I find it disturbing.  It also motivates me to keep painting.  I have not been doing much, and have a million excuses, but to chase away the blues from someone else's success, I need to make some success of my own.  I'm also going to try and get someone to help me post my new paintings because they are pretty fabulous!

I feel so stupid, but I cannot upload the photos of my new paintings.  I don't know what I'm doing wrong.  I think they are a nice new change for me.  They are land/sea scapes, but in oranges, reds and yellows.  I think you would love them if you could see them.  Rats!

The diptych is at the bottom of the "recent work".  I still can upload the better photo, but if you click on the item it will come up to a more representable photo and I will keep working on it. 

It is such a trying time.  I have been painting on and off.  I spent 3 months in Sacramento and while there painted over some old paintings my daughter had.  Now I'm attempting to upload a diptych that I spend a long time on.  The files are too large and won't upload.  I will keep you posted.