You know, I have trusted my judgement a good percent of the time.  I think part of that is because I trust that people are telling me the truth.  When a lover tells me he's never felt this way and finally understands what love is, I believe it.  I have been a fool.  I also have trusted my political outlook.  Sometimes I'm disappointed, but I have never doubted myself the way I do now.  I have usually towed the party line and been OK with it.  I supported Hillary Clinton, over Bernie Sanders,because I believed she could win.  And, because I am a feminist and think it's time for a woman to run this country.  I was glad when Donald Trump got nominated because I trusted that the American people would never pick such a racist scoundrel for president.  (A part of me still believes they didn't.)

I have been wrong, wrong, wrong.  Wrong about the lover and wrong about the election.  

For the first time in my life I have not read a paper or listened to any news program.  I just don't want to know how or why this has happened.  I don't want to know what I can do and how this can be fixed. I'm too busy wallowing in the depths of my despair.